i have had such an amazing week and ending it off by going to cirque du soleil with travis to celebrate our two year anniversary was perfect. 
i feel kind of torn because now that a new week is starting i’ve realized that i can totally choose to have another week like this one, and half of me thinks that’s a great idea but the other half of me knows that things definitely have to change. for example this week travis and i have been smoking together a lot but now with court coming up he really has to stop messing around and start working on his community service hours and getting clean. i know that i personally have no reason to stop if i don’t want to but i have to be supportive of travis and help him and i feel like that is a lot easier to do if i am sober as well. plus i’ve noticed how i’ve been flying through money this week and i really don’t like it. as much as i love love love going on long ass car rides all over austin with travis and mary jane the gas is kind of an issue right now. we’ve been flying through it in my car and with the amount of traveling i do between my house, work, and hutto as it is i can’t keep flying through gas. but see that’s why i’m torn, i could live forever in those car rides and never get bored. i love listening to the music turned all the way up, having all the windows down smoking a cigarette, holding trav’s hand and kissing his cheek at the red light. my favorite drive that we do is when we take spicewood to 2222 and take that all through downtown. it’s so pretty and each step of the drive takes you through a completely different area. we’ll have to see what happens next but i hope all the changes that are made turn up for the best. maybe a little down time will be good for us.