i haven’t wrote in here in awhile but considering that world of warcraft is down for maintenance on tuesday mornings i found myself with a bit of free time (:

a lot of exciting things have been happening lately while at the same time a lot of things are changing.

i want to talk about my sister for a minute. my sister and i didn’t always get along as well as we do now. in fact, when we lived in new york my mom used to pay us daily to not fight or hurt each other. now that we’ve grown up a little and saw what it was like to live without each other for awhile we have grown to appreciate each other as a best friend and someone that is actually fun to spend time with.
lately however i have been kind of sad with the choices claire is making. needless to say i’ve definitely had my fair share of times with marijuana, my times were when i was much older than fourteen and usually took place in an environment where i knew i was safe. for over the past year of my life i have been fighting to keep my relationship with travis away from marijuana, it destroyed the bigger part of our time together. it stopped being fun and started being scary, offensive, and a burden. after a year of tears, lies, and hurt travis and i have never been at a better place in our relationship or probably our lives in general.
yesterday my parents started catching on to how out of control with this claire is really getting. one of her friends dads showed up on the porch with a bag of bongs and told us then when he confronted his daughter about it she ran away. he wanted to know if she was here (which unfortunately she wasn’t). out of curiosity my parents rushed off to walgreens to buy a drug test and find out what is really going on with claire. they asked me to be in the bathroom with her while she took the test to make sure she wasn’t going to try anything stupid.
while we were in the bathroom together she broke down into tears, begging me to take the test for her. she knew if she was caught doing this for the second time she would be grounded all summer and not get to do any of the things she had been planning with her friends. as many times as claire has covered for me and helped me out i couldn’t do this one for her. i felt awful seeing her in the bathroom panicking and watching her summer go up in smoke but in reality it is not my fault. after going through a year of this type of problem i just couldn’t go through it again with claire… so i let her suffer the consequences. of course she failed the test, and now risks loosing her summer trip, phone, and computer among other things.
i know she isn’t speaking to me right now but i hope that she can find it in her heart to understand where i am coming from and we can trust each other again one day.

on a bit happier note… travis is officially living in the bressette house again! WOO WOO! (: i love having him here and it’s even better this time than the last time. we are both over two months sober and looking for new jobs. i’m still at pho viet for the time being but if a better job comes along i am definitely interested (: tomorrow i’m going to ACC to talk to the adviser about registering for my classes at the fall for nursing. i finally feel like everything is falling into place for my future and i couldn’t be any happier or any more in love. (: speaking of which i have to leave for work in thirty minutes so it’s time to wake travis up for a smoke and kiss <3333